As much as I wish I was the title of this blog, I must say it is not true... I am not impervious. I make mistakes... Quite often... From what I understand it is quite common for people to slip-up... or indulge in a behaviour that is a far cry from their best interests. Now, I don't mean to say that makes everything okay, but am I wrong in thinking that EVERYONE should know, or has known the feeling? Ah, schools out for summer!! or Thank GOD it is Friday!! or whatever you might say to yourself... But to all of you I say... I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND... But you know what? It doen't matter... I think I have enough self-loathing for a lifetime, as I am pretty hard on myself at times... But you haven't only let down yourself now... You have let down everyone that cares about you, GOD, and the WHOLE DAMN WORLD. Now, with this, and please ignore the last part of that dramatic statement, I pose a thought... I see and know that people HIDE things... LIE about things... maybe not with malicious intent, but none the less the FACTS would hurt... Well the FACTS do hurt, it's just a case of how little you can make someone hurt by suppressing the FACTS. We have all heard it... the WHITE LIE... or leaving out parts, or just not saying anything unless asked, cause your not liying if they don't aask right? All of these things are rationalisations made by ALL of us.. Whether you would like to admit it or not.. and I do mean admit it or not, cause if you don't admit it... Your a fucking liar... So... I have been thinking.... I WANT TO KNOW THE OFFICIAL RULES.... I WANT TO KNOW WHAT I CAN LIE ABOUT... and NOT ONLY THAT... I WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU PEOPLE DO IT... Yeah, that's right... I want to know how you pull it off? TELL ME THE SECRECT... Cause I have always thought honesty is the best policy. You know where that has gotten me.... In a place where I wish I had kept my fucking mouth shut A LONG TIME AGO... But, I couldn't do it.. NOW I AM NOT SAYING I AM A SAINT... I fuck up with the best of them, but I always say, I would respect someone a lot more if they told me the truth... And as much as that has been and would be the truth for me... It hasn't gained me any respect, or even forgivness from the people I RESPECTED so much to be honest with. It ruined everything. No that wouldn't be fair to say, I RUINED it, but my choice to respect the other person, I opened my big fat mouth. It is true, like the song says... You will see your problems multiply, if you continually decide, to faithfully pursue... The policy of TRUTH... I just want to know the secrect... I want to know how people go out there and fuck anyone and everyone over and still sleep at night... Are you just conviced that this is the only life you get? Or have you just BLACKED that part out? Did someone fuck you over and was it your safety net? Or was it just a one time thing and you learned your lesson? Well REGARDLESS of your rational... I DO SEE THERE ARE CONSIQUENCES TO MY MISTAKES, MY CHOICES.... I HAVE TO SUFFER THROUGH THE RESULT OF MY OWN DEEDS... I know that is what is right, but you know what... FUCK YOU PEOPLE WHO DON'T HAVE TO... YEAH FUCK YOU!!! YOU GET TO LEARN YOUR LESSON ON YOUR OWN WHILE YOU MAKE ME FEEL BAD FOR MY MISTAKES... one day, it will all catch up to you... and when your at your worst most self loathing point I hope you remember all the bullshit you put others through, and I hope they are as forgiving to you as they have been to me. Cause you know what? WE DESERVE EVERY LAST BIT OF WHAT IS COMING TO US. | 
